最後一天
7 August 2009
Last day in Hyde Park. It’s strange to visit the bookstore one last time, to walk down Ellis Ave. one last time, and squeeze onto the 172 one last time. Things are changing here…new dorm opening, building the Mansueto library…people moving to different places. I will miss it much, but I think I’m ready to move on. It was nice while it lasted.
making lists to feel accomplished
20 June 2009
things to do after graduating:
- find a job apply to programs to delay finding a job
- programs that lead you to think you’re making a difference in the world in a year or two, like ending poverty and global warming
- study for and take the GRE
- if feeling particularly masochistic, study for the GMAT as well
- get recommendations
- figure out course of action for fulbright
- participate in NaNoWriMo
- think of clever ways to avoid finding a job yet appear productive and goal-fulfilling
- travel while making dough/making a difference: two hefty goals for a uofc graduate, but we’re trained to have high aspirations that amount to nothing and lead us straight back to academia
road to somewhere
20 June 2009
it’s been exactly a week since graduating in the cold wet rain. currently in wisconsin at rosie’s at her graduation party–her dad teared up when trying to say how proud of rosie he is, which was very touching.
it’s been a week but i don’t feel like i’m a graduate. i suppose it has to take a while to sink in. but the bigger questions that everyone asks: what will you do next? are the ones that are really pressing. i can’t say i’ve enjoyed graduating. glad to be done but the uncertainty is hard to deal with. my life has been planned for the past 22 years. it’s strange to think that i can choose my own path now… and the prospect is rather frightening.
instead of my father tearing up about how proud he is (i mean, he is), he’s on my back about what i’m going to do next, asking why i haven’t figured it out by now. it’s a bit frustrating. i suppose i should have applied to some one or two-year program to delay the decision-making, but i didn’t think committing to a program that my future path is unrelated to was worth it.
it’s a strange time now, after graduating from uchicago. everyone has such high hopes. unsettling.
飛飛飛
29 May 2009
我是一隻小小小小鳥
想要飛要飛
飛要飛不高
我不能繼續
我不能繼續
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這樣的要求算不算太高?
The end is nye
26 May 2009
4 papers and 1 presentation to go
The end of my college career is marked down in pages and papers.
stretching the final stretch
24 May 2009
Late May yet chilly
Nine days before last paper
So close yet so far
dead and bleary eyed
23 April 2009
so tired. cannot keep eyes open. will be over soon. ahhh……
christmas
25 December 2008
gifts. hate. wrapping.
dead and bleary eyed.
@__@
29 November 2008
staring into space
the living room is chilly
need to write something
nerves
24 November 2008
I have an interview at 11am. And my writing assignment is due. And my stomach is churning with nerves and stomach acid. Is this how ulcers develop? Feel a bit like drowning. Getting rather hard to breathe. It could be the outrageous heat. Stupid radiator. Deep breaths. Deep breaths. Ommmmm….. unfurrow eyebrow. unpurse lips. breathe deeply. breathe deeply. think happy thoughts. think nothing. 飛飛飛